Edge of the Pacific

It is that time again, writing on the leaving, traveling home soon, I am not saying goodbye, I don’t believe in goodbyes, it is only until next time.  I have developed a profound love for the people and this place along the Pacific Ocean, there is some powerful energy here that attracts people of similar mind to my own, and let me tell you what, that is not an easy thing find. I have been on a journey that led to this place, every stop important, and it is not over yet, in fact I don’t know if it ever ends, not in this lifetime anyway, my soul seems to have grown exhausted of being static.  

"It's no use going back to yesterday, because I was a different person then." – Alice in Wonderland, Alice

I find myself reflecting on these past seven weeks, so much has transpired, where do I even begin, maybe at the end, since that is all that really matters anyway, the past is just that, the past, other than reflecting and learning, it is of little concern to me.  I sit here today, a different person than upon arrival, it really wasn’t just this place, this place has been a revelation though, but just a stop on this great journey that began where most great journeys begin, with enough pain to make you rethink your whole life and begin to look toward something greater. I am grateful for that pain!  Great progress starts, nearly always, with great pain.

At the gentle nudging of friends, the universe, and a profound declaration from ayahuasca, I believe it is time for me to begin writing a book about this journey of adventure and self-discovery, a story, in the fictionalized f*^@ked up style I enjoy writing in, but you will have to bear with me as the next steps in this journey play out, I don’t even know the ending yet…  It could be some years away from reality.  I am only putting this out there for one reason, to unequivocally state my intent to the universe, who I trust will keep me on the path to see that it materializes onto the Earth.  Up until now, I just couldn’t conceive how writing a book would make any sense for more reasons than I count, but I am going to let go of all that and put my trust in this spiritual journey, putting it up to faith and fate.

I am certainly going to miss this place, I have spent my time here eating endless amazing meals, from savory and comforting pozole de camaron to the most wicked fajitas to ever touch these lips, simply outstanding eats and drinks, endless fresh fruit of all conceivable varieties, both known and unknown to me prior, then there are the Humpback whales, watching them nearly every morning breaching and blowing water into the blue sky over the Pacific, while the birds soar over the waves on the breeze looking for their next meal, the waves crashing into the rocks below, whose power and energy can be felt as vibrations through the rocks and up and into my body, oh and the Dolphins, all right from my front porch, this villa by the sea has been a home like no other, one of my favorite locations on this giant celestial rock we call Earth, I have been blessed to have spent five weeks of my life here, then there are all new human connections, new amigos, amigas, hermanos, y hermanas, renewed and refreshed hope in authentic human connections, the chance encounters with beautiful intriguing women on my beach, all those encounters that evolved into an afternoon of playing in the sun, sand, and water, please excuse me if I didn’t make time for much else… I was a little preoccupied!  Beyond that, so much time and effort was spent on me this go around, my growth as human being, it all came to be in ways I didn’t expect, but ultimately that is where the journey went, and I followed, without hesitation, without regret for those experiences that didn’t happen, coming away with a clarity that has eluded me my entire life,  just out of my grasp, and for the first time, showing up as the full authentic version of me, I must say, I like that guy, think we’ll will keep him around. 

The world seems to be opening up for me in ways I have never conceived of, simply because how I am showing up, I suppose that is what I sat out for Montana to find in July of 2021, I didn’t understand it all back then, but it was only the first 1500 miles of the journey, what we think we want or need in the present, isn’t always what is meant to be forever, Montana was only the first stop on the journey, but a stop that had to occur, so I could locate that wild adventurous spirit that lived inside me from deep within the mountain wilderness, because what just played out here before me, by the edge of the ocean, mere steps from the magic of the Pacific, a long way from the wild places of Montana, wouldn’t have happened without locating that part of my spirit.  

I have never been more certain of anything in my life.

Grateful to be headed back to my home in Indiana, the next stop on this journey. 

And I run, 'till I meet the sun
And I run, until I reach the seas
At the edge of the ocean
There's a place to start over again
At the edge of the ocean
Holds a place, we can start over again

Edge of the Ocean, Stick Figure