A Sunset in Time & Space
If you have come down the rabbit hole with me this far, maybe you want to come a little deeper on a spiritual journey? See I already made my choice, I choose the red pill.
“Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?”
“That depends a good deal on where you want to get to,” said the Cat.
“I don’t much care where—” said Alice.
“Then it doesn’t matter which way you go,” said the Cat.
“—so long as I get somewhere,” Alice added as an explanation.
“Oh, you’re sure to do that,” said the Cat, “if you only walk long enough.” —Chapter 6, Pig and Pepper
The reason why was never clear, why I was pulled to this place, but I felt a pull, and I have learned to trust that instinct, good things typically happen when I do. Suppose I have written this here a few times now, when you leave the comfort of your home for a new place, there is only one certainty that can be had in those experiences, you will return to where you call home, a different version of you. A personal truth, proving it’s self out once again.
I have spent most of my life under the illusion I was in control, actually relying upon it, trying to control outcomes by any means necessary. It has been a partially effective strategy for me, at best, at it’s worst, it was exhausting and highly destructive. When you are griping to what you want or think you need so tight, life moves right past, just out of reach, you can’t be in the now, living only in the present moment, and that is where life happens, in the now, not in 10 minutes, not in an hour, not tomorrow, and certainly not yesterday. Right now! I find myself more regularly leaving any and all concern for what happened in the past and what might happen next behind, how refreshing for me. Letting go, what a burden to clear.
I am becoming increasingly more comfortable with a new paradigm, easing into letting go of the illusion. I can now see that I actually need very little, this is a subtractive process not additive, I am in fact, already everything I need to be, and I certainly don’t need control over any of it. The universe will put in front of me all that I need at exactly the right time, I only need to stay connected in the moment to receive it.
This week I was the recipient of a gift, a gift of authentic human connection, no doubt the universe put this person in my path for a reason. I meet many amazing people in my travels, but this one was uniquely amazing. At just a first glance, I had an almost instantaneous understanding that I was looking into the eyes of person that represented my energy equivalent, I could see it radiating from her being, vibrating particles of life energy. A connection that seemed eerily familiar, as if we had known each other in previous lifetimes, joined in force our combined energy created its own reality and inertia. This beautiful women helped guide me too some truths that I needed to see, but even more than that, she helped me hone the question I need to ask for this next step of my journey, a doozy, one which will take me way deep inside the spiritual rabbit hole, the red pill.
It’s been a road to get to this place, but there was no other way to get here, it all went down the only way it could go down, and here I am, the only moment that matters is the one in front of me, the right now, and my intent is to bring my best energy, authentic Joshua, to every single moment I have left in this life. A statement of intention I offer up to the universe, right here and right now.
This next couple of weeks here in Mexico will play out just as they should, besides working on my tan, it’s an opportunity for letting go further, connecting with people, and opening my mind to receive all the possible truths the universe might offer up, but that only happens if I stay connected to the moment with intention.
Let me be perfectly clear, I had never considered, not even once, that this might be some sort of spiritual journey, until she asked me how long I had been on one? A simple, yet profound observation in one perfect sunset moment from a beach on Mexico’s Pacific coast.
My cup is spilling over with gratitude. Some connections just transcend time and space.
Mucho gracias amiga!
Joshua
"There are only two days in the year that nothing can be done. One is called yesterday and the other is called tomorrow, so today is the right day to love, believe, do and mostly live.”
―The Dalai Lama
