On The Otherside
While a complete account into my recent adventure into the depths of the spiritual realm is developing itself out in my mind and on my computer, not sure how long that is going to take to come to life, these things take time, especially in the midst of physical and mental recovery, but for those of you who might be curious, I find myself back at home and on the otherside of the most incredible journey of my life, I am currently processing and integrating it all, physically and mentally wiped out, exhaustion. Now a week out from the first ceremony, I am just now getting my energy back, I might be at 50% of my normal self. Sitting for three Ayahuasca ceremonies on consecutive nights takes a toll on the physical body, not even to mention the effects on one’s mental and emotional states of being.
Not only did I receive everything I asked from Mama Aya, she delivered even more profound understanding and gifts than I ever could have imagined. I am overflowing with gratitude. Together her and I finished the work I had already begun, peeling the onion back all the way back to the center, right to the inner core, you know one of those onions that are little past their culinary prime, where the center has started to turn green and is beginning to sprout, that is exactly how it feels, with the superficial exterior layers shed, I am fresh and new, green, sprouting and beginning to grow anew. It was the most profoundly beautiful and incredibly painful experience of my existence here on planet Earth. It was perfect!
I will offer up this in closing, just until I can complete a fuller richer account, something I know as a matter of certainty, the medicine will give you what you need, what you are ready to see, no more and no less, anyone considering such a journey should be prepared for that, I find myself walking around with a lightness in my being, as if a huge root has been pulled out from deep inside, this comes with a profound sense of emptiness, as if a giant gapping chasm has been opened deep inside me, eliciting incredible excitement and possbiilty, with all that old conditioning gone, I now get to choose what incredible and beautiful new dreams and beliefs I can grow in that space. It has been a journey the length of my entire life getting here, it is hard, deep, painful, and challenging work to peel off all those layers, I dug deep, I found that root, I pulled that sucker out, and I am grateful for every moment of it.
Joshua
